He's Gone

Gerry and I are officially broken up.   I had some kind of wake up moment and thought to myself, wtf am I doing.  He is not who I want, I mean he is ok, I just realized I don't love him, I probably never can and we really have no future...

Keep Your Ring

Still in my hometown.   Last Saturday Gerry came down to celebrate the holiday.  We had a good time.  After dinner he presented me with a ring.  It was an engagement ring.  Only it didn't come with a proposal, not that I was expecting one, or...

The Talk

We were going to drive to Brownwood, which is at least two hours away.  I was going to drive because frankly my Dad is a slow driver.  I suggested to stop off for breakfast before hitting the road, so that is what we did.  Will was with us, I was just...

Dinner With Dad

It's been a good two weeks, still back in my hometown.  Still staying with Jeremy's parents.     The day of the Houston trip blowup was not a good day for me, we had to stay over late because of trouble with one of the vehicles.  Gerry ended up...

I Am Messed Up

My Matty turned three today! I love him more than life itself.  He is such a beautiful, perfect little boy.  I know I have failed him miserably.  I am not a perfect person so therefore can't be the perfect mother.  I have failed, he too like me, will...

Ya Calmate

Sunday night phone call with my dad:   Me: Dad, I want to know if you have room for me at the shop. I'd like to work with you until I decide what I'm going to do here.   Him: Uh uh, no, I don't want you around here until everything with...

Home Alone

One day last week, I dropped off Will at his grandmother's and instead of heading to my AA meeting, I went off to catch a movie.  It was the Jennifer Lopez movie, which was sorry as shit.  If it weren't for some good looking guy that I could peek up...