Deep Breaths

I said I went home early cuz of the weather but that was only partially true.  Gerry had pissed me off too. Wednesday morning I made my way early to the courthouse because I'd never been there and was unsure of the parking.  It wasn't too bad....

Next

Heading home tomorrow.  Originally my plan was to leave very early on Wednesday.  But with this stupid weather I decided to leave Tuesday evening.  It turns out I am staying at Jeremy's parents house and of course Matty will be there.     So...

4am

It's 4am and I'm wide awake.  I've come up with a new life plan.  Whatever it is I have going on with Gerry is not permanent.  I'm not even sure what we'd call it.  This is the man who once said I wasn't exactly the type of gal who guys would drop...

Let's Go

The last wknd (Sunday) I went to see Matty, the original plan had been to drive there early Sunday and back late that night.  Gerry said he didn't like the idea of me driving back that late plus he thought Jeremy might upset me and I'd be driving back...

This, That and the Other

The day after the shaking incident we were still giving each other the silent treatment, though I had got up early enough to prepare his breakfast before he left that morning and he thanked me.  Later that day he called up and said not to cook dinner...

Rewinding

It was both a good and bad wknd.  I'll go with the bad for now.    I hate dealing with difficult emotions, I hate feeling pain.  I don't want to do it.  On the way back up to Dallas (we had stayed over Sunday night), we got into this big fight...

My Way

I'd been whining and bitching like a five year old over that job.  I was dead set against working at the begining and somehow he caught me at a good moment and/or managed to talk me into it.  Now, days later, I am standing my grounId.  I do not want...